Saturday, May 23, 2009

A different love

My dearest girlfriend,

We communist have a high casualty rate. We're the ones who get shot and hung and ridiculed and fired from our jobs and in every other way made as uncomfortable as possible. A certain percentage of us get killed or imprisoned. We live in virtual poverty. We turn back to the party every penny we make above what is absolutely necessary to keep us alive. We communist do not have the time or the money for many movies or concerts or T-bone steaks or decent homes or new cars. We've been described as fanatics. We are fanatics. Our lives are dominated by one great overshadowing factor, the struggle for world communism. We have a philosophy to live which no amount of money could buy. We have a cause to fight for, a definite purpose in life. We subordinate our petty personal lives into a great movement of humanity. If our personal lives seem hard or our egos appeal to suffer through subordination to the party, we are adequately compensated by the thought that each of us in his small way is contributing to something new and true and better for mankind. There is one thing in which I am dead earnest about and that is the communist cause. It is my life, my business, my religion. It is my hobby ,my sweetheart, my wife,my mistress, my bread,my meat. I work at it in the daytime and I dream of it at night. Its hold on me grows, not lessens as time goes on. Therefore, I cannot carry on a relationship with you any longer, no longer a love affair, not even a conversation with others without relating it to this force which drive and guides my life. I evaluate books and people and ideas and actions according to how they affect this communist cause and by their attitude toward it. I've already been in jail because of my ideals, and, if necessary, I'm ready to go before a firing squad.

Your commie soon to be ex-boyfriend,


No that letter wasn't for me nor wish it was. A church minister published this letter many, many years ago to show somehow the kind of commitment a man has towards his cause and posing the challenge to the followers of Christ to do more for the king, the one who holds the future. If one man could give up his personal happiness, his very life for the success of one ideology, cant Christians do the same or more... Its good to be reminded from time to time of what have we done for Him who first loved us before we loved Him. And be asked what sacrifices are we ready to undergo to glorify His name? At this time and age where most people seek personal gratification, I still do believe, genuine Christians will rise up during dark and trying times. May we proudly say, we belong to the the latter's tribe! Hallelujah!!

How

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Friday, May 22, 2009

Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Chat Room Life
Well, whats life nowadays?

For 6 months now, can't believe it, I survived the life in a chat room. Don't have to mention what site is that as few won't believe that crazy things happen in such place. Its another place where one learn to navigate the waters in order to enjoy the journey and stay afloat. To chatters' delight or frustration, they cant see and hear the players and only read what they have to say. But if one is lucky he gets to establish relationships that may color his life be it plain friendship or more intimate. Some attest to that anyway. So far, I bonded with some ladies and gentlemen and our communication progressed from chat room to YM. And soon, I will be meeting two of them in person. This coming June am off to the southern part of the country and would grab the chance to see them. One who works in a non-government organization is happy to assist me find a place to stay while there.

Chat room is a small universe complete with characters. Wholesome,funny, refreshing,spiritual, friendly, blunt, sarcastic, desperate, swindlers, perverts, vultures, wolves etc etc interacting constantly.

So does one easily differentiate the reel from real ones in chat room. Well, if you come across with those who are out and out, boisterous ones, you wont be needing much time to know the person. Who is dangerous is the one pretending to be nice, funny, craving for friendship, acting saintly than a real saint, lol. He makes you laugh, boast your ego, make you feel special until you get close to him and trust is bestowed. Gradually, the dark side of him unfolds and you will feel used, betrayed, ridiculed. Ah, time and again, women with their trusting nature, fall prey for this type. There are exceptions though, some men i came to know remain as nice and gentle as ever. Hmmm, deliciously sweet ha ha ha . . .

Fortunately or unfortunately, its a virtual world. But I guess,the feeling is the same. You hate yourself for not handling your affairs carefully, for being gullible to opportunists characters, for ignoring the red light, for acquiring "this wont happen to me" mindset.

Perhaps, my journey in a chat room is complete. I can even make a story out of it lol. Learned some chat language, met cute guys and wonderful women with stories of courage. Is it time for me to bid adieu? Well, as of now, the only reason for me to stop visiting the site is to have that overwhelming love of someone or for something, enough to make me forget about it, lol.